I HATE YOU!!!

Several days ago, I read someone's writing on her/his blog accidentally. I doubt for the gender. It could be manipulated, right? I don't know this was just my feeling or the truth. I felt some of her/his writings intended to me. Seemed he/she was answering my writing. I don't know what she/he want from me.

If it was you....
Are you giving your advice or being quip me? Trying to be nice to me, hah? Why you didn't do that since the first? Being nice to me not to make me always wondering about something wrong inside me.

When you react negatively, I always seeking my own mistake like a stupid. Have you ever offended by my words? Why you didn't tell me, which words? Have you ever hurt by my actions? Which one? Why you so unfriendly to me?????

For all you did to me, I just quiet and try to forgive, to understand although I'll could never be! Maybe, I'm just a fool who should be ignored. It's OK... I can take it. But at least, you can give your little mercy to ignore me without hurting me by your words or whatsoever the way!

As long as my awareness, there's no slightest words and deeds I deliberately did to hurt you. I didn't know if I was wrong. But, since your first words, second words, third words, thousands words, I couldn't pretend anymore, close my eyes and my ears to ignore the fact that you didn't like me. But I don't know why.

One day, you walk over my patience and skip it. You hurt me, more than other bad person ever did to me! Nothing needs to be explained, because I also never got it from you! I HATE YOU!!! You got some sure!!

 

I'm on the floor
counting one minute more
Noone to break the silence

Staring into the night
all alone but that's alright
It's the feeling deep inside I don't like

There is no excuse my friend
for breaking my heart
breaking my heart again
This is where our journey ends
Your breaking my heart again

Here in my bed
counting the words you've said
They linger in the shadows

There is no excuse my friend
for breaking my heart
breaking my heart again...