Bye Bye for A While...

Feel so relieved!!!
Hopefully you'll still remember my previous post. I've told you that I'm waiting an answer. And finally I got it last Wednesday. My headmaster gave me "Yes" for my wish to continue my study this year. Lot of pray before I convey my wish. I even prepared my self for the worst possibility due to the fact that two of my friends have been taking their chance for the permit earlier than me.

My fate was not as lucky as my two friends. If they got "Yes" directly from the headmaster, then I have to wait for some time. I can take it with fully awareness because my wish will bring significant influence to my own schedule. My friends just take Friday and Saturday class in their college and fortunately they free for those days, but me at least will take three days from my teaching days because I planned to continue my study at state university then taking regular class. So indirectly, my wish means I beg my headmaster only give me two days for teaching.

After the torment of waiting with hardly heart beat, finally my headmaster gave me some sure. I did  get permission from the headmaster technically, but surprisingly the real permit actually came from the  superintendent  head of Garut district, Mr. Endang Suryana. My headmaster said that she need some protection from someone who has higher authority level than her to give some guarantee both for me nor for my headmaster if later there's a problem relate to my wish. *hhh... kepala sekolah gw ribet ye???

Really, this was absolutely my lucky. I even didn't know who Mr. Endang Suryana is.  We just ever met one time, and there's no personal talks. I was not born to be a sycophant, and will never be. So I never try to get close with influential people because seeking attention to be known or begging something, include to him. That's not me, Dear... I'm not that pathetic. I just remembered that I was able to answer several of his thoughtful questions. That's all.

Whatsoever the process, I felt so grateful to God. Suddenly I remembered for what my grand mother said. When I want to go for work, I always kissing her hand, and she always said the same words, "Jug, sing salamet, gede milik, gede darajat, sing loba nu nyaah". I've just realized that her words are pray, honest pray, Friends...
 

God has shown me the way to catch my dream. Now is my turn to show my best effort to really open the door where I can find my fancy dream. I'll learn hard to pass the test and improving my English better. I would not waste the opportunity that God bestow upon me. I must starting learn to balancing my time for work, learn, and play. Bye bye for a while :*

Only If

By: Enya

When there's a shadow near, reach for the sun
When there is loving here, look for the one
And for the promises, there is the sky
And for the heavens are those who can fly

If you really want to, you can hear me say
Only if you want to will you find a way
If you really want to you can seize the day
Only if you want to will you fly away

Na na na...

When there's a journey to follow the star
When there's an ocean to sail to far
And for the broken hearts there is the sky
And for tomorrow are those who can Fly 

Je voudrais voler, comme un oiseau d'ailleurs

(bis) d'ailleurs 

Come to me colorful life, please come to me...